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all_inclusive2014-03-15 10:41 am
vampire_shield) wrote in all_inclusive2014-03-15 10:41 am
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The problem with being a vampire, Bella thought as she surveyed the two uprooted trees and pile of kindling at her feet, was that there wasn't ever a break. Maybe the pent up anger, frustration and sadness wouldn't have been as intense if she could have just slept. Just a few hours away from it to reboot or reset herself.
She remembered Carlisle telling her once that vampires felt things more completely, that just as their vision and hearing and speed were enhanced, their emotions were, too. Considering the state she was in now, even days after meeting Adrian, she was pretty sure she knew why. There was no relief from it, just day after day, night after night of dwelling on it.
Today she'd decided to go to her forest, to run, to hunt. To see if she could find something to distract her expanded mind, to get away from seeing that face across the hotel and experiencing the same dashed hope that this time it wasn't someone else.
The run had helped a little, pummeling a few trees to kindling had, too.
But even now as she walked back to her room with twigs in her hair, she knew it probably wouldn't last.
She remembered Carlisle telling her once that vampires felt things more completely, that just as their vision and hearing and speed were enhanced, their emotions were, too. Considering the state she was in now, even days after meeting Adrian, she was pretty sure she knew why. There was no relief from it, just day after day, night after night of dwelling on it.
Today she'd decided to go to her forest, to run, to hunt. To see if she could find something to distract her expanded mind, to get away from seeing that face across the hotel and experiencing the same dashed hope that this time it wasn't someone else.
The run had helped a little, pummeling a few trees to kindling had, too.
But even now as she walked back to her room with twigs in her hair, she knew it probably wouldn't last.
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"Sorry. I should have probably moved away sooner."
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"I'm not cold or anything," Adam promised quickly. "Everything is fine, you didn't have to jump away or anything like that. It's good. Everything is good."
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"Oh, no, it wasn't that." Now Adam was even more embarrassed because his reasons for being nervous were entirely rooted in the fact that he had feelings for Bella that he shouldn't, not because she could technically kill him.
"I know you wouldn't do that. My reaction was not about that."
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"I care about you and I don't like seeing you upset," Adam said. It wasn't exactly a lie but it wasn't entirely the whole truth either. Hopefully Bella wouldn't be able to see through that though as far as he was aware, she did not have any kind of telepathy.
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"More than," Adam promised. "I don't think you're going to eat me or anything. If you were, which you wouldn't because you have morals and standards, you would have done it already."
Adam felt this particular line of logic was sound and was comforted that Bella would probably adhere to them. Otherwise, well, that was a problem to deal with when and if it ever came up.
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She smiled and took a step closer again, took his hand. "Thank you, Adam."
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"For what? Not wanting to preserve my own skin?" he asked, chuckling a little. "I have kind of a death wish if you think about it logically. Then again, being a witch, most of my life doesn't deal in anything remotely resembling logic."
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"I'm pretty good at curing bad moods," Adam said, laughing along with her. He didn't know if he was any better or worse than the next person but he did try, and he guessed that definitely counted for something.
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