"Why? All it does is hurt," Adrian said darkly. "All it does is make me feel useless and inadequate and feel like there's nothing I can do to escape it. But I have to have it, it's a part of me, so I'm stuck trying to occasionally numb it."
Other options:
no subject
"Why? All it does is hurt," Adrian said darkly. "All it does is make me feel useless and inadequate and feel like there's nothing I can do to escape it. But I have to have it, it's a part of me, so I'm stuck trying to occasionally numb it."