"Yeah, I can't deal with how I swing back and forth," Adrian said, sobering just a bit. "I don't want...I don't want to be a drunk but sometimes it's just easier to be a drunk than it is to deal with my feelings."
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"Yeah, I can't deal with how I swing back and forth," Adrian said, sobering just a bit. "I don't want...I don't want to be a drunk but sometimes it's just easier to be a drunk than it is to deal with my feelings."